Poetry and personal blog – Spilling my guts to strangers

One Self

If you were not here watching,
I’d let my twin muses inject their sex:
She is a wanton goddess of self
Absorption; he, a careless prick, hot and desirable.
They touch me when I ask
Them to and where I would during masturbation.

They are like my own hands, these Twins of Masturbation:
When they ravage me, I am my own voyeur, watching
My pussy juice soak the page. You ask
If this poem is about sex.
I wonder would you find that desirable,
Then I obsess about myself.

You search this poem for signs of yourself
Your lips, your hair, your tits/your dick, your masturbation
Fantasies, your proof you are desirable.
I watch you watching.
And yes, this poem is about sex. It is sex.
Take it, you don’t have to ask,

You never have to ask
For what belongs to you, this poem, this self
Pleasure, however you like it. Even sex,
In pairs or in trios is masturbation—
Whether you give it or get it or like watching—
If you focus just on what you find desirable.

Fuck me desirable.
Teach my tongue how to ask
For it. Do you think God is watching?
When I am with you, there is only one self.
Will you be my masturbation?
This is not sex, this is not about sex,

Because sometimes sex means sex,
Women and men. Besides, is it desirable
For me to say that life is one big masturbation?
You can’t afford the answer if you have to ask
Or maybe we owe it to ourselves
To ask and I would if you were not watching.

But you are so I won’t write about sex nor will I ask
You to think of cum-stained rainbows. It’s not desirable, literary, or self
Respecting. I swear, no talk of unicorn masturbation toys. And no porn watching.

© Sweepy Jean and Sweepy Jean Explores the (Webby) World, 2013


Comments on: "One Self" (15)

  1. shrinksarentcheap said:

    I love this! It’s a sensual overload and it reeks of life. Fucking beautiful.

  2. Wow…way to open opening day.


  3. […] Explores the (Webby) World. She mentioned that, in celebration, she usually does a poem a day. Her first one was … deep. I’m still working it around in my […]

  4. One word, Sweepy–BRILLIANT.

  5. Dangerous Linda said:

    Adriene: Way to whip it out, Gurrlll! I must admit, it made me somewhat uncomfortable to read this (and I suspect it was supposed to!) My self-conscious tension was relieved in the end by the humor and I appreciate that. Thank you for stirring my brain, as always!

    • Thanks for keeping an open mind, Linda. I wasn’t trying to make anyone uncomfortable though I did seek to push conventional boundaries. I believe all language is acceptable in poetry. The other part was trying to work out for myself certain questions about our human experience.

  6. Oh my. I’m loving this from you Sweepy! Get it girl! Lol! I do think life is one big ole masturbatory session. You brought the heat! Looking forward to more.

  7. Raw and ripely profound at the same time! The poem leaves you feeling alive. Or maybe it stays with you (?) 🙂

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